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The end of a memorable year to a start of an amazing year ♥

“Well, well. It’s 2012! A whole new year ahead of me!” - This was me until 3pm on New Year’s Day.

It has been a rather mixed-up-emotion day today. On New Year’s Eve, In a way i was so excited for a new year. I was listing up my resolutions, updating what needs to be updated and i even drafted a text to be sent to my loved ones. After drafting, i was like, why wait for midnight. Everyone’s gonna wait for midnight to send their texts. So, i sent my text around 9pm to 72 friends of mine. It was a long and apologetic text. I felt great after all texts were successfully sent. Moments after, my cousin came in telling me that we were gonna go see the fireworks! Bloody excited i was! We were all ready by 10pm and we left the house by 10.30pm. My siblings and I, were excited as hell. Like some malays would say, jakun giler! Yes, ladies & gents. It was our first time ever seeing the fireworks on New Year, live ,outside home! We decided to go to Queensbay as we didn’t want to camp in the car If we were to go to Gurney. When we reached Queensbay, we were pretty much frustrated with the crowd there. It was full of babies and kids crying and nagging to go home. Also not forgetting 5 or 6 (can’t really remember) drag queens on stage making the crowd dance. We were pretty much annoyed, so we went to the west wing cause we knew that the view is gonna be better from there. We waited and waited and my siblings started to crack up stupid jokes which got us laughing so hard not realizing that it was minutes till midnight. As we were waiting for the countdown, we were surprised by the unexpected fireworks which appeared 2 minutes earlier. There was no countdown which pulled me down. I was massively frustrated. The moment the fireworks were out, we went straight to the car and headed to McDonalds (an hour after escaping the traffic at the parking spot). We bought us some burgers and headed home.

In the morning, I woke up with such high expectations to get New Year texts and replies. I’d like to thank these people so so much for making me feel so appreciated that morning

Thank you again loved ones. However, i was pretty let down by the amount of replies. I expected at least a simple Happy New Year or I Miss You from some of them but i guess they were busy or something. Well, I’m not gonna let that stand in my way to have a great day ahead. As the day passed, i realized that i had a special event to attend at noon. Kikie’s aqiqah to celebrate Baby Ben :)

It was such a beautiful moment to see my own bestfriend holding her first baby boy. She made us girls feel like we’re part of her little family. Thank you Kikie. We love baby Benyamin Rafael. Moving on, we (my sister & I) were there for two hours. When we reached home, my mum had yummy lunch cooked for us. What made lunch great that day was the presence of my dad who is rarely at home. We had lunch and we had some laughs thanks to my two hilarious brothers. After lunch, we had a short cleaning session, as we cleaned parts of the house since we’re finally guests free. We had guests coming over since we moved in. When everything was clean, we went up, wore baggy clothes and watched TV together. Maan. Heard of this movie? It’s a hindi movie. A must-watch really. We memorized the songs since we were little. After the credits started appearing, my dad decided to take us out for a new year dinner. We were pumped up and our tummies instantly started humming. Dad brought us to Straits Quay for dinner. There were three live bands which got me dancing in public. It was a fun dinner. Felt like the last time we had dinner together was a century ago. Alhamdulillah, i feel a slight change this year. Other than the change that my parents are more lovey dovey as days come, i also sense more love and closeness in the family. je t’aime ma famille

As the night was coming to an end, i felt so emotional. I had no idea why! I just felt lonely and undiscovered and sad. I started picturing life without the people i love, and i swear, I’ve never cried so bad like i did then. It would feel like there’s no life left in this world. I then felt like i needed to talk to someone. So i started to browse through my contacts and there were 193 contacts but what i saw was “don’t bug me”, “i’m not available for you tonight” and lots more. My imaginations were pretty wild. I started tearing up again. Missing all my friends. wanting them to send me a text rather than me texting them all the time. Then, IM’s started popping up one after another. In a way, this like ‘popping up’ thing is like a sign. Or a message. I’m gonna take this as a sign from Allah, a sign to not give up so soon, to not grieve on things that we not know the reason why it happened, to move on with life, to be strong, to be patient and to be a better person who doesn’t cry over little things like no replied texts. Ya Allah, thank you for blessing me with such a beautiful sign or in other words an amazing gift after having a slightly emotional day.  After one conversation ended, another one comes up. These people who IM’ed me tonight made my New Year’s day worth known as a special day. Thank you guys,for popping up. I shall now smile myself to sleep.

Hazim Shafik

Hirzi Zulkiflie

Nik Ahmad Shahazri

Afzal

Khairil Azhar

Tonight’s soundtrack :

Izzul Syafiq Mazlan

Adele

Boyz II Men



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